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Tuesday, March 13, 2012


Slice of Life Challenge - Day 13 - hosted by Two Writing Teachers

We all make decisions in life.  We make our choices based on a variety of things.  Sometimes they are easy and sometimes they are not.  Sometimes they are insignificant, such as what color of socks to wear, but sometimes they are life-changing.  Sometimes our choices mean that we miss out on something important.
I made the choice to go to visit a close friend instead of spending the weekend at home.  I chose to travel to her new house and spend some time in her new world.  I chose to miss out on spending time with my own family.  It wasn’t an easy choice, but I chose based on the fact that I thought there would be many more weekends to enjoy my family and not as many times to visit my who now lived two hours away from me.
It’s a choice I will forever regret.  Not because I didn’t have a nice visit with my friend, but because I missed out on something much bigger.  Of course, as often happens, I could never have known what would happen.  I could never have anticipated that I’d never see her chubby little cheeks alive again.
You never imagine that a precious young girl, a baby really, at two years old, will be taken from your life.  You never dream that making a simple choice will mean a huge regret to shoulder forever.  As a young twenty-something, death is for old people, drug addicts and people you don’t know.  It’s not for spunky young girls with big blue eyes and a smile that could wrap you around her finger in mere seconds.
No, it’s not fair.  It’s not fair that I missed her last days.  It’s not fair that the car crossed the center line.  It’s not fair that her brothers lost their baby sister.  It’s not fair that I lost my beautiful niece.  It’s not fair that my sister lost her baby girl.  Sometimes life is not fair.
People say everything happens for a reason.  I have said it.  Most days I believe it.  Life has shown me enough by now to believe it.  I choose to believe that the reason she is gone is a big, important one.  I choose to believe that God had a very important job and needed a special helper to carry it out.  What other reason could there be?  There is no other reason that brings me comfort like that one, so I choose it.  I make the decision to believe that God needed a very special angel and someday I will understand why...but I don't have to like it.


  1. Robin, oh my, what can I say? I am so sorry for your loss. I wish we knew what was ahead when we make choices. My heart breaks for your family in this incredibly sad time. Thank you for sharing today.

  2. Robin, I'm so sorry for your loss and for your family. What a devastating loss. I will be thinking and praying for all of you.

  3. What a heart-breaking loss. I am so sorry for you and your family.

  4. I'm so sorry. Please don't be upset with yourself for making the choice to visit your friend. We can only live our lives day-to-day and make the choices we think are best at the time. I know that things happen for a reason, but it doesn't make them any easier. That little angel wants you to be happy.

  5. Robin, I think choice are all we have as humans. Dogs really don't have them; cats either, and so on. I really do believe we do things the best we can. You did such a nice thing for your friend and you couldn't know what could happen. I'm sorry for this terrible loss. I hope someday you will find comfort with her.